It was so surreal being back there! I had some great memories of spending Boxing Days there many years ago....it seemed a lot smaller than I remembered LOL. They lived in a large mobile home which is situated in a large park. As soon as we turned into the park, all my memories came flooding back. We used to run around the park and sit by the duck pond for hours when I was small!
Walking in was strange, like no time had passed at all! It was exactly as I had remembered and Grandad had all the same ornaments up that he had when I was a tiny toddler! I was taken aback to walk into the living room and see a photo of my mum and dad on their wedding day! I hadn't looked at any photos of them for years by then and it gave me a weird, chilling feeling looking at it....seeing my fathers eyes ...! So much had happened since the day they got married...I often sit and wonder what went wrong with him over the years....surely he must have been a nice man back then for mum to marry him?!?
I showed Kev around the house and I knew exactly where I was going. As we walked into the bedroom I spotted this on the wall...
The poem I had written for Grandad's 65th birthday 15 years ago....and there it was still on his wall :D
As I walked into the bathroom I saw the yellow powder puff bowl that Nanny used to use when I was small when she got me out of the bath, she would puff me all over, usually making me sneeze LOL. And there was her dressing gown and slippers still in the bathroom....that was tough! I kept expecting to walk into the kitchen and see her cooking as she always had!
Then in the living room I spotted Paddington!!! Nanny had a large (what I remember as a 5 year old child size but it was actually a lot smaller) Paddington Bear that stood in the corner. All of us as kids had taken turns to wear his wellington boots around the house..and there he was :)
We had a great afternoon catching up and looking at photos. I was quite upset and disturbed at some things Grandad told me about my father...it turns out I had been more brain washed than I realised. To see so much hurt in an old man's eyes was devastating. He obviously hates my dad for what he did to his family....after all he took his little girl, his youngest daughter and his 2 oldest grandchildren away from him, he didn't think he would ever see me again! I feel so ashamed that I was ever any part of that 'family'....!
Despite all that, we had a lovely weekend and it was quite amazing to be in that house again! We went out for dinner and reminisced.....Grandad raised his glass and said "Well, Ange, I never thought I would be having a drink with you again!" He is such a lovely man! :) I love how well him and Kev get on too....I used to sit and dream when I was smaller about my husband having a good relationship with my family.....when Grandad calls Kev 'son', it makes me smile so much! It is such a lovely feeling knowing that Grandad is and Nanny was so happy to have me back! :) xxx
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