The simplest things...

From then on things got better and better.  I saw things completely differently, I learnt how to deal with my negative thoughts and how to make sure I am giving out positive vibes.  I no longer saw meeting new people and making friends as a big mountain to climb.  I used to get so worked up about meeting new people, I had it ingrained that people wouldn't like me....now well, things are much easier.  I seem to be surrounded by lovely friends.  Its nice getting used to being liked :)

People look so surprised when I say that I used to be shy and quiet....its nice to know that I am no longer perceived that way.  I am not scared of everything now.   Is is such an invigorating feeling to walk down the street without feeling worried, with my head held high and a big smile on my face!  I didn't realise that the days when I was younger and I thought I was happy, I really wasn't, I never really felt truly happy until I left, an overwhelming feeling of freedom.  I had my life back and I could do exactly what I wanted with it!


I slowly stopped thinking about my 'family' and stopped caring what they might think.  Like this blog, I held off for so long in case they somehow managed to read it.....but now I don't care.  I was fed up of not doing things 'just in case'. I have nothing to hide, nothing to be ashamed of and its time to celebrate my life for all its high's and low's!  Now, its the simplest things that make me smile...some friends say I have a childlike innocence and I don't understand some things in life because I had such a sheltered upbringing.  I regularly spark the response "Aaww Angie, how did you not know that?" LOL.  I am slowly learning all about life.  I no longer feel vulnerable....if something did happen and my parents tried to make contact again, I know I am surrounded by friends and a huge family and no one would ever let me get hurt.  I have such a large support network now and I feel so lucky!


I started baking and cooking in our new house and one day made this for Kev:

He loved it :)
















We spent lots of time with Zoe and her husband Gareth and started celebrating all the occasions I was never allowed to celebrate before like Halloween...and I learnt how to calve a pumpkin :)

We went to see my first ever Firework Display at Christchurch Park in Ipswich with Zoe and Gareth and two of their other friends and loved it.  We were all so cold afterwards we went back to their house and snuggled down to watch X Factor.....my feet were freezing so thought it was quite reasonable for me to borrow Gareth's slippers! :)

We had so much to look forward to!  Zoe had agreed to be my Maid of Honour and Gareth Kev's Best Man and the four of were heavily into sorting out all our wedding plans!  

And Christmas....for the first year since I was a tiny kid, I was so excited about Christmas!  I had a good feeling!   I just knew that Christmas 2009 wwas going to be a great one! :)

Now, I dont take a single day for granted.  Everything I do has a special meaning to me...and the simplest things make me incredibly happy.

"Birds flying high, You know how I feel, 

Sun in the sky, You know how I feel,
Breeze driftin' on by, You know how I feel,
It's a new dawn, It's a new day, It's a new life

For me And I'm feeling good!!!"